Did pretty well today.

steel-cut oats w/sugar and skim powdered milk

no morning snack

bowl of taco soup for lunch

cottage cheese as afternoon snack (a little late--HUNGRY!)

bowl of beef stew, 2 plates salad for dinner

8 cups micro popcorn (160 cal) evening snack

this is where it gets challenging for me. the candy cane oreos are calling to me

I need to go to bed earlier.

I need to eat mindfully--not reading, or standing or watching TV. I need to recognize that my body is being fed.

I felt quite full after the oatmeal this morning. I felt pretty good until lunch-no need to eat.

After lunch I felt the cravings come. But tonight the cravings are intense. I am so used to getting something to snack on and going to my bed to read. I need to add that to my list of goals:

• no eating in bed while reading AT ALL!! chew gum if I need to
• get to bed earlier--I won't have as many cravings late at night!

Overall, I feel good about today but aware that my will power isn't so great. I almost gave in to the cookies SO MANY TIMES today!

I know that feeling good is so much better than the momentary pleasure on the tongue. I just have to create a mantra that I can repeat over and over so I can get through it.

Also, we don't have the treadmill set up yet. I am hoping we can do that soon--I really need to start moving! And going outside is NOT an option right now. Way too much snow and WAY TOO COLD!!!!!

Today is the day!

I am getting back on the wagon whether it kills me or not!

I weigh approx. 220, and I want to lose about 30 pounds in the next couple of months, to get ready to get pregnant again.

My goals:

• eat breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner
• portion control (NO seconds!)
• exercise 30 minutes/day (M-Sat)
• strength training T, Th, Sat

I will check in to let you know how I do.

4/15/2010

Breakfast: (need to add when I ate it)

Two bowls of Honey bunches of oats with skim (powdered) milk.

1 breakfast sandwich with whole wheat english muffin, scrambled eggs, 1 slice cheese, and 1 slice ham.

It is time to get serious

Today I got on the scale.

222.

Yikes!

My "ideal" body weight for my height is 125-164. I think that between 160 and 170 is a good goal. I'll start with 170 and cross any more bridges when I get there.

So Larry and I had a heart-to-heart. We are ready for a change. He thinks the alkaline diet is a good way to go. I am scared of that diet because it is so different than what I am used to. But I am willing to make changes. I just want them to be changes I can stick to for a lifetime.

We are going to start with breakfast. Breakfast will be different. That is the first baby step.

Here goes!

Well, back on the wagon...

I am sad to report that instead of going down on the scale, I've gone up.

To 218.8

Oh well. Might as well start now.

Any ideas about not getting discouraged before I even get started?

Breakfast 2/1/10

1 large bowl of wheat berries with skim milk. I need to measure before next time.
Time: 10:45 am--I need to eat earlier next time.

Back on the wagon!

Well, it is a weekday, and I worked out this morning. (Yoga) I think that counts as exercise. It sure does feel good!

I am going to keep track of everything I eat. I think I am at that point. It is like the first step to budgeting--seeing how much you are REALLY spending in a month. I need to SEE what I am REALLY taking into my body each day. Time to get real on what is holding me back from being healthy.

Also, I am thinking about starting to say some positive affirmations about my body each day. I keep telling it how ugly and horrible it is (in my mind), and I need to let it know that it is wonderful. I think it is kind of like a good form of brainwashing. I've brainwashed myself to the fact that I have an imperfect body by telling it nasty things for as long as I can remember. Now I need to tell it, honestly, that I am glad I have it and that it is truly great. I can do that.

Here are some affirmations:

I have a wonderful, healthy, hard-working body that does everything I ask of it.

I am beautiful. (that one is hard to swallow, but I am brainwashing, i tell you!)

I have been blessed with this amazing body so I can bless the lives of others.

I will take extraordinary care of this fabulous body I have been given so I can accomplish all the things I need to every day.

Okay--I will repeat those a few times every day. I'll let you know how it works.